What If My Writing Disappears?
by
Curtiss Robinson
Hey there book reading maniacs! I have been asked to write a
few things that might be a little surprising but we only live once right?
Well
let’s get it on!
While writing Protectors of the Vale late one night
in Zabul Province Afghanistan, I suddenly became keenly aware that I was no
longer alone. My men were sleeping soundly in their US Army-issued sleeping
bags (affectionately called fart-sacks…yep, you can imagine why). It was late,
probably around 0100 hours if memory serves me correctly, and I felt the hairs
on the back of my neck prickle with anticipation. I was still in my boots and
pants, but my body armor and helmet were across the bed. I reached under my
pillow and felt the cool grip of my M9 Beretta pistol. I slid it quietly into
the low-ready position and flipped the safety off. I looked around a little
nervously, half expecting nothing and half expecting something unspeakable. I
dared not stand up for fear of giving myself away with the creaking of the
cheap mattress springs from my cot.
A cool breeze blew from nowhere. It danced across those now
bristling hairs on the back of my neck sending shivers down my spine. A cold
sweat began across my brow, and I felt the palms of my hands grow sweaty as
well. I took a minute in the near darkness to put my eyes on the M4 rifle
propped up on the bipod beside my bed. It comforted me like a loyal friend I
knew would never let me down. I longed to belt my pistol and grab the rifle,
but those damnable squeaky springs would be my undoing for sure if I did.
The room was bathed in a dim glow from the screen of my
computer and moonlight streaming through the one window high in our small
B-hut. My eyes were attuned to the poor light but I saw nothing. I strained to
hear movement, but there was nothing but dreaded silence.
I considered waking my men, knowing that their loaded
weapons were useless as they lay prostrate in their fart-sacks, but I hesitated
knowing that a false alarm would be both humiliating and impossible to explain.
In my mind, I pictured something terrible devouring them one by one like a
human burrito bar at a Mexican restaurant. I know it was ridiculous, but my
mind was now on high alert and everything seemed possible at that moment.
Suddenly, I noticed something I had overlooked. It was the
laptop—more specifically the program I had open. I realized that I had been
writing for several hours as I did every night after a long day of fighting the
enemy, but I hadn’t saved in a long while. “Son of a biscuit,” I thought and
mouthed to myself. How could I have been so careless? I was trapped! Both hands
were on the pistol, and I was immobilized on the squeaky cot. I was willing to
fight and even die protecting my men if something attacked, but I hated the
thought of losing my work. I reconsidered the rifle just out of reach. I
reconsidered waking my men. I even said a little prayer hoping that God would
be with me but, in the end, I was drawn to that god-forsaken laptop!
I took a deep breath and moved my left hand away from the
pistol. My right hand trembled a little as the anxiety built. I got my index
finger of the left hand over the mouse pad and eased the cursor ever so quietly
across the screen. Time slowed to a crawl as I tried to use my peripheral
vision to watch the shadows while my attention focused on the save icon.
It was in place, but I knew the mouse button would make an audible click when I
pushed it. I knew the enemy would hear. He was always there, always listening
and waiting for his opportunity to kill the lot of us. I scanned the room one
more time, my head on the proverbial swivel. It was hell not knowing what was
out there, but somehow all I could think of was not saving my work and dying at
the hands of the enemy. My mind raced. I started picturing the enemy capturing
us all. As they tortured my men with knives and hot brands, I could picture
them slowly and painfully deleting my work one…character…at…a...time!
In one deft move, I threw caution to the wind and pressed
that blasted mouse button and, as I had predicted, there was a click. It wasn’t
that loud in reality but, at that moment, it sounded like a bass drum…ba-BUM!
I sprang up and the springs from my cot squealed like screeching brakes. I
whirled around ready to open up with my pistol, but there was nothing there. I
holstered the Beretta and grabbed the rifle, knowing death was soon to be upon
me. I pulled the charging handle back and let the buffer spring catapult the
bolt forward, ramming a bullet into the chamber. It made yet another gargantuan
noise…cha-chaunk! Who or whatever was out there surely knew I was awake
by now, so I roused my men saying, “ON YOUR FEET!”
Twelve warriors sprang into action, grabbing pistols and
rifles with reckless abandon. I dashed to the wall and took cover just as the
enemy was about to kick our door in. My men took up positions behind cots and
footlockers, preparing for the devil himself to come through the door.
Suddenly, my senior NCO flipped on the lights and said,
“Sir…what in the hell?”
I was surprised to find myself lying in my cot with the
laptop on my chest. Apparently, I had been having a nightmare when I called out
to my men in my sleep. I didn’t have the heart to tell them I was having a bad
dream about not saving my work so I lied. I said, “Just a little PTSD…I’m good
men. I’m good.”
Not a word was ever spoken about that night out of respect
for me but, I tell ya, the one fear I have as a writer is losing all of my
work. As a result, I am always saving and emailing my wife backup copies. It
really doesn’t bother me now that I am back in the good old US of A, but in
combat the darnedest things can really get the best of you!
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Author Bio:
Curtiss Robinson
Curtiss Robinson (1970-Present) was born in Key West,
Florida, grew up in South Carolina, and joined the US Army in 1989. For twenty
years he served in Ft. Bragg, NC, Schofield Barracks, HI, Ft. Bliss, TX and
returned to work in Charleston, SC with the SC Army National Guard. During his
second combat tour (OEF 2007) he wrote his first adventure novel,
"Protectors of the Vale", which mirrored the successes and failures
of his PMT team in Afghanistan. In 2009, wrote "Defenders of Griffon's
Peak" which further detailed the adventures of his sword wielding and
spell casting fantasy characters. Curtiss is a lifelong martial artist and RPG
enthusiast which contributes greatly to his combat scenes and vivid imagery but
it is love for epic heroes and tales of legend that fuel his love of writing.
You can learn more about Curtiss Robinson at his Website.
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Blurb: Defenders of
Griffon’s Peak
Continuing The Heroes of Dae’Run Series with Volume 2 The
stalwart city of men takes up the fight against the Bloodcrest Forces in
Defenders of Griffon's Peak as the orcs of Dek'Thal build alliances with the
worst of mankind...the fearsome assassin's guild and a deadly pack of
were-wolves. Ever in opposition, the Protectors of the Vale venture from the
Far West to unite with the heroes of the Far East to defy the evil Bloodcrest
Forces. Vlaad-the last human defender and champion of Griffon's Peak and his
beloved Theila, a warlock of dark magic, leave their home to hunt down the orc
leader Gorka Darkstorm and put an end to his evil plans. Cunning assassins lie
in wait at every turn, deadly were-wolves prowl through the night, and the
worst fears imaginable stand between the heroes and their duty. Vlaad and Theila
will need more than skill with a sword and sorcerous might to fight the evil
looming before them as shields splinter, blood flies, and magic lights up the
sky.